XX. It shouldn’t be terrifying, but it is. Why? Two reasons that I can think of: 1) Lack of understanding and 2) Lack of trust. The lack of trust is easiest to explain, hardest to accomplish. God loves me. This I know. I do not feel it, much of the time, but I have seen it. I can recall specific instances of it in my life. I chose to believe it in my sanest moments and that belief has never been proven wrong. All of these doubts are simply that, doubts. They are not proof of God’s indifference. That is only a feeling, but I have reason and will. By God’s grace they will choose trust and the feelings can come along for the ride. Or not. Whichever. Who needs them anyway?