Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts
Showing posts with label poetry. Show all posts

Thursday, December 11, 2014

In the Beginning



Words have lost their music, or so I hear.
Perhaps they never had any, or so they say.
I will never forget a soldier to whom I said,
“What is the most beautiful song you have ever heard?”
He stopped his talk, and looked at me in quiet,
For a precious half-a-second, before he replied,
“It never occurred to me that music could
Be beautiful.” Perhaps that is the point.
Words retain the music, but we’ve lost the ear
Because we’ve lost (or chased away) our silence.

Our silence? As if it were ever ours.
The Word draws power from the Silence Before The World,
The only power that is, the power of Music
The Music which is the Lord and Giver of Life.
When we become quiet, we begin to do the same,
But neither the words, nor the quiet, are ours;
And certainly not the Music which Is between.
Rather, we are Theirs, or else we simply are not.
Our words are lego miniatures of the Word
And even in them we play with Holy Fire.

If there be not music, then let silence reign
Or at least the rehearsal, barely attended to
By children playing bagpipes, violins,
Trumpets, drums and flutes, in eager cacophony
Always sharp, or flat. Some are merely young.
Others are always trying to play the wrong tune,
Or play their favorite tune at the wrong time.
Some expect they will likely do well enough
When the time comes, so they distract themselves
With sidebar talk; And some just like the noise.

Dead men fill the air with the burden of talk
Zombie conversations about nothing
And I, being dead myself, am fully complicit
In filling and killing the silence with empty talk
Struggling to empty words of all their silence
Lest we find ourselves confronted by
The aweful reality of nothing to say.
So conversations deaden, bore and stultify,
Wilt the critical function and reconfirm
Me in my headlong flight from bright reality.

This is not the courage of the bulwark picnic
In the cancer ward; nor yet the Socratic libation
Poured out for the gods; nor even of shaking the hand
Of a pretty girl. This is only fear
Conspiring to (just-so-happen-to) look
Out the other window at that precise time
As we pass the camo jacket with the cardboard sign,
As if we fear that poverty might be contagious.
Of course it is, but what we do not see
Is that we are already infected, and quite terminal.

Against all this we raise our timeless chats
Over tea and toast around the kitchen table;
Amid beer and pipes of aromatic smoke
In the cool of the evening, when the ancient garden echoes
Softly in the mind, tingeing words with music
Older than fig leaves. Conversations reach
Backwards and forwards into the now and always.
Silence dives still deeper in the single point
Where darkness dwells in unapproachable light.
Humility alone can bring us to this place.

Humility requires, demands, the incarnation
Of ineffable word in flesh of mortal deed.
The scandal of the particular is never more
Strongly felt than when at last we turn
From words to music, in this specific act
Of encountering the Word in scribbled sharpie ink
On a cardboard sign; or in the aching void
Between the lines of empty zombie talk;
And offering bread, not bread alone but Word
Eternally uttered forth from the Mouth of God.
 

Thursday, March 20, 2014

The Sign of Jonah


I have long been anxious of signs.
I have searched for God in sortilege
And tea leaves, and on tarot cards printed
On the pages of my Bible. Clinging
To past and future I have wandered
Lost in darkness following fancy lights.

But the point of intersection was found in Starbucks
In the SM Supermall,
General Santos City,
Mindanao,
Philippines,
Earth,
Milky Way Galaxy,
Universe,
Mind of God and
Hollow of His Hand.
In a timeless moment within His eye,
I ordered a venti English breakfast tea
Three minutes steeped. Time not specified,
Implied that a barista would know.
But no. And I, foolish I who knew full well
Smell of overbrewed tea, received and paid
Said, “Thank you” and let it steep ten more
Before returning to the now to taste
The waste I had made of that innocent creature.

I know not what power tea leaves have to tell
The mind of God to their foolish fellow creature.
But unlike I, they answer to one only teacher
And praise Him without endyng righteous well.
In Lent our thoughts are turned to death and hell,
Heaven and judgment, and prominently feature
The cup presented in the garden to the wandering preacher
Who claimed to be who He is: (He Who Is)
Who saw, and mourned with sweaty drops of love
That tinted red the earth and washed it clean;
Who drank the bitter cup, the draught not His,
The mortal poison meted, not from above
But from the brewers of tea leaves (though truly we have seen).

Why blame the creature? The tea leaves did no wrong
They never claimed to know the mind of God
And if the brew now tastes of dirty dishwater,
Unmitigated by honey, whose fault is that?
There is still even now, thus, late, a chance for love.

My loins were girt about with khaki shorts
With flip-flops on my feet, and book in hand.
I raised the bitter cup and humbly quaffed
One-ing myself (by invitation) with Him
Who drank the worst I ever brewed for me.

It does no good to sink
Into myself and drink
Nod to Heaven, offer it up,
Toss it back and break the cup.
I must sip, sample, slowly savor
Swirling with my tongue the flavor
Strange, sharp and brown,
The rush to my head and down
Into my stomach the coarse
Clumsy
Callow
Tannic acid rudely forc’d,
Rudely overbrewed from innocent leaves
(At which sacrilege all creation grieves).
I must not waste
The moment! I must taste
And see its goodness
In its very rudeness
In its being-what-it-is,
All His and none of mine.
The bitterness divine
In-joys me and I enjoy
That tea like none other.
Blessed be He!

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Pied Beauty

One of my favorite poems of Gerard Manley Hopkins, the Jesuit priest and poet.
Enjoy!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Ulysses

I had a lot of time today, so I made a youtube video. This is me, reciting Alfred Lord Tennyson's "Ulysses."

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Threshhold Life

Do not call me a dead man;
Say, rather, unborn.
Call me not an evil man;
Say only, “Unformed.”
Unformed, embryonic, a teeming mass
Of cells, undifferentiated,
Potential unmapped
Unabated because untapped.
No not evil.
I have committed no crimes.
I am not a devil.
But I am a product of my times.
I have spent my score of years and seven
Waffling about between heaven
And the space inside a zero.
I have built a fortress out of sheer possibility
And I guard its ramparts like the true hero
Of false humility;
Firmly entrenched in the zero space
The liminal space
The nowhere space
Between a thousand “Yeses.”
Not lost;
I know precisely where I stand
Trammeled about by guesses
More educated than most.
 
An acorn is free to roll,
But not free to grow.
No.
For that there is a toll,
And the toll is rootedness
Fixedness
Differentiation in anticipation.
And before that there must be a split
A tearing
A rupture of the skin as from within
Tender green and white things like earthy wings
Must thrust through the crust into the dust
And dirt, in search of fertile ground. It hurts.
And before even that there must be the time
Of lying
And crying,
And dying silently on the forest floor
Half buried under dead leaves.
Pelted by rain and hearing
The snortings of pigs and scurryings of squirrels and fearing
And feeling lost and cold, as the frost takes hold.
All too often only thus is softened
An acorn’s shell.
And it cannot tell
That only thus is it free
To be
Rooted.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

The Fate of Sin


And I ask, through angry tears, how can it be

That we who love still fall again and again?

In spite of prayers and acts and words of love, unfree

We daily fall to fear, and sin, and pain.

My Grandpa said, as his life began to wane,

“I sometimes ask, ‘Why did this happen to me?’

“But I know why, if I’m honest. The answer is plain

“I smoked for fifty years, and soaked up UV.”

Even at the end, in pain, eaten up by cancer,

He said “Without the pain I would never have come to know

How it is to float, embraced in a sea of love.”

Perhaps, under the Mercy, sin will have the same answer,

And that which beat and scarred us down below

Might yet, perhaps, be worship up above.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Smouldering Wick


I love you, my friend, cracks and all, but still

I cannot love the sin that saps your soul.

I hate it with a perfect hate. My will

Engages in the hate, the selfsame goal

That drives my love, drives that hate. The whole

Of my being loves you, for Love must fill

My entire being. We cannot mete and dole

His essence out in coffee spoons. We kill

Love’s fierce vitality, enslaved by shame’s control.

Blind fool that I am, ignoring the bruised reeds,

If I drive my righteous rota-tiller across your soul,

How will I not exterminate what I most love?

Even angelic wisdom cannot take the weeds

Without destroying the wheat, ‘til the final roll

Is called, and all is sorted out above.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Transparent Mask


I see my friends when I love them. Love is not blind,

It hides nothing. I see them warts and all.

Even at my most besotted my wakeful mind

Sees and notes with eyes undimmed. My call

Is not to help you hide or build your wall

But to see and love what you most fear I’ll find.

I will not pretend. I will see unafraid. The fall

Denies perfection. May as well be resigned

To scraggly teeth and extra pounds, why try

To be a false ideal? You mock your own face

And silly quirks, far worse than I could ever do.

All my friends have cracks, and so do I,

And yet we muddle on by Love’s own grace.

Hide your cracks? I love them! They are you.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Into the Desert

I posted this a few months ago, but the first reading from today for the feast of St. Cecilia brought it back to my mind, so I am reposting it.


Into the Desert

At last we go into the desert, my bride.
The moment is here, this moment, no time to waste.
Long you’ve run, and longer still I’ve chased
And now at last you’ve nowhere left to hide.
What do you have to lose? Unsatisfied
By strange, enticing lovers in whom you’ve placed
The trust you promised to me. Your heart, unchaste,
Is finally vomiting the poisons that you’ve tried.
So come and water the wilderness with your tears.
Leave your Assyrian lovers and drugs of choice
And over the noise let vast, dry silence fall.
In silence, without the Iphone, face your fears
This desert is not your home. I AM. My voice
Created you in a garden, after all.

Friday, November 16, 2012

The Good Life

I wrote this as an antidote to yesterday's poem. This one is based on my grandpa's life and philosophy. It makes a great deal more sense than the other one.





The Good Life
 

He gave me a nod,
“The Good Life?
It’s pretty clear.
The life that meets a:
Faithful God,
A loving wife,
An excellent beer,
And great pizza.”
 
 
 

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Inferno


Once upon a time we knew
What we knew,
And what we didn’t.
But that is long since hidden,
Bidden fly away and hide
Inside our vain certitude
That our age is one of beatitude.
The attitude is one of extreme
Academic schizophrenia, we seem
So certain we know, and dream
All that is worth
Knowing on earth
Or dreaming.
Meanwhile scheming
To convince ourselves from our youth
That the truth
Is unknowable.
Un-showable.
And consequently, why bother
The reverend Father
With disturbances of his reverie
His litany,
If it makes him happy
Then leave him to his delusions
So long as his certainty does not threaten our confusion.

We are not especially interested in why.
Sure, have a try,
At thinking about meaning,
And dreaming
Of reasons
And seasons,
And some fictitious “Plan,”
But Man, I’ll let you have “Why”
And I will learn of “How.”
That’s the real thing, now
These days, knowing
Not where we’re going
But how to get there faster.
You see, the clock is my master,
Or not really the clock, but my own fear of hereafter.
To rest would be a disaster.

Did I mention
My latest invention!
I put a jet engine
In a car with no map. My intention
Is simple, to race around
And around,
And around,
And around this giant, blue/green hamster wheel.
The real cannot be reached
The barrier cannot be breached.
So I will race without a destination
Not a vacation.
Not a variation.
A vacancy.
Vacuous virtuosity
Curiosity is dead
Instead my mind unravels
To travel from the here of my birth
To nowhere. What mirth?
What youth?
What truth?
What good are questions to one who doesn’t believe in answers?
What good is a ballroom, if you are afraid of other dancers?
 
You see, we used to tread our bawdy measures
In search of pleasures,
Trading treasures, gold for silver
Silver for copper,
Copper for clay,
Clay for dung,
And even dung is too rich
Too alive,
Too fecund.
Sterility, that’s the thing.
A rock feels no sting,
Our fling with vices
Showed us nothing suffices
Except Everything!
We struggled to achieve
Happiness, but conceived only pain
And again, ceased to believe
In things.
When you have finally clawed your way to the bottom
It is easy to mock the heaving orgy of Sodom
From the finality,
The banalit,
The silent streets of Gomorrah,
Having sold all tomorrows
And bartered all sorrows
And pains,
And gains above
And loves,
And joys,
And toys,
And trash,
And even ash
For nothing,
And no one.


I wrote this poem a few days ago, and when I finished it, it scared the heck out of me.

Friday, November 2, 2012

God's Tarnished Knight

A repost of a very, very old poem of mine. Sadly (or gladly with most Divine gladness, depending on how you look at it) this one never goes out of style.



God's Tarnished Knight
 
O Lord, Good Lord, I beg you turn your eye
And pour out yet again your Precious Blood
On me, your tarnished, fallen knight, for here I lie,
Wounded, trampled, crushed and smeared with mud,
But not, O Lord, Good Lord, a valiant hero, I.
 
These wounds I got, not in honorable brawl,
In noble triumph, nor in glorious defeat
But I quit my post, O Lord. I did not fall.
I stooped, laid down. I wasn’t on my feet
But on my back. I didn’t fight, I crawled.
 
And now I lie and grovel on the field
As if by further absence from my post
I might, somehow, pretend I didn’t yield.
I beg you, Lord, whom I have injured most
Forgive me, and restore to me my shield.
 
Without a word of blame you now renew
My strength, and raise me from the dirt
And every wound of mine appears on you.
You set me back at my post, as every hurt
I brought upon myself, I bring on you.
 
 
You lie down in my place upon the ground
And gaze at me, as a hundred demons lash
Your innocent flesh. They gibber as they pound
And kick you around the field like so much trash,
And all the while you love me without a sound.
 
How dare I ask forgiveness?! I have no right!
 And yet how dare I not, since you command?
I may not shirk your mercy, nor the fight,
In vain humility. So here I stand,
No hero, Lord, but just your tarnished knight.


Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Dilemma


Late at night the poet wields his pen
Revealing the strange things everybody knows
To eyes that see but do not look, and ears
That hear but do not listen. The sons of men
Cannot survive reality’s hammer blows
Without some armor, but armor only kills
And must be chinked and softened by many tears.
The question is answered, not by minds, but wills.

The Truth will kill you, if you let it reach
All in you that is not true. It does but slay
What is already dead. The image shields
From nail wounds, but one might as well say
That we are shielded from the dance by other dancers.
We will not learn so the poet cannot teach,
Cannot conquer because we will not yield.
So full of questions, but no longer believe in answers

 Perfect love casts out all fear, but there
Is precisely mankind’s dilemma. The apple grove
Is littered with rotten cores snatched down still green
From living trees. The unready, stolen gift
Turns our stomach sour and tears a rift
In the fabric of the cosmos. All this has been
Our curse, that now it is precisely perfect love
I vitally need and most supremely fear.
 
Oh Rivers clap your hands, ye mountains dance
And by your dance say things too full of truth
To be said with prose; by bright-eyed paradox
Shielding hearts from the Lover’s fiery shocks.
Burning into our hearts. The fire of youth
Hides in ancient patience. We look askance
At giddiness; not all is gold that gleams.
But wisdom hides in foolishness and so we dream.

Friday, September 7, 2012

Courage, Dear Heart


Be not afraid, my Dove, the ancient hawk

Has had his talons gloved, his wingtips trimmed,

The putrid wings, with feathers full of death.

He sits upon his perch, these days, with rattling breath

And calls across the desert he lately skimmed

In petulant rage. Impotent. Empty squawk.

 

And you, my Dove, my gentle little one,

Hidden in the rocks for far too long,

Must trust your wings. Never mind your fears

And plucked out feathers, and rivers of dried up tears.

You may not sit and mourn. Get up! Be strong

With wings made whole, and glide beneath the sun.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

70 X 7

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?” Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.” Matthew 18:21-22


The namer was called unto the seventh day,
“Shabbat, my son.” But chose at length the sixth,
He and his wife.
And lived their life,
Between Monday morning and Saturday night
Grudging Sunday’s rest, clinging body and soul
To the thorns and sweat and pains of childbirth.


Nothing will induce me, so it seems
To rest.
At best
I slip back down,
From the sixth to the fifth;
And from carousing like a beast
I slide by slow degrees into the sloth
Of vegging out on youtube half the day.
Hardly worth
The blood and pain of birth
If I spend myself in becoming, step by step,
First a beast
(For there, at least,
Is strength to do!)
And then a vegetable in an armchair
And then a stone.
And when I’ve done,
My life’s ambition met,
As close to formless void as I can get.

Thank God for thorns.
For alarm clocks and early morns,
And all the harrying, hateful spurs of necessity
That drive me from the void. Some energy
At minimum I must spend to eat
To drive, to earn respect of all my peers.
And then, who knows? My ears
Attuned to frequencies beyond my normal ken
Hear the seventh faintly ringing through
The cacophony of egos, appetites and fears.

But Now I find myself back
Where I started this poem. My lack
Of rest.
Distaste
For any slackness in my rodent race.
I nervously sit through Sunday and my face
Betrays impatience for Monday.
“No rest for the wicked,” is not a punishment
But a simple statement of fact. When what is meant
Is understood, one might as well put forth
“No food for the hungry.” But of course!
That is why they are hungry.


And every seven days another chance
To put down spade and crackberry and learn to dance
So that on Monday, (On taking up once more
These workday dance partners) we might even up the score
And teach new steps to those who made us step
Like geese, in time to the rhythm of our clocks
Marching under orders from our sterile gods.
When drill sergeants learn to dance, they lend a measure
To what would otherwise be merely raucous pleasure.


And every seven years the land lies fallow
Untilled, unsown,
Left on its own
To see if it might
Yield in its own right.
The rest of the years are to learn from this year of rest
That all work is but a joining in, another way to divest
Myself of my self. Work is but another way to receive,
It has that in common with stillness. But I deceive
Myself when I think my work is mine, or grain
Or fruit or flocks or words in print. Once again
Working is just another form of begging
And sitting in prayer as much a form of legging
As commuting to work.


The Rock was taught a thing or two that day
How many times must Sunday come around?
Before I no longer need to work at rest?
But we are never lodger, always guest
And Monday is meant to vanish once for all.
Shabbat alone remains.
Live in the other six days all you want.
Stay there, if you wish, triple them up.
The beast, the vegetable, the rock, the void
Alike are destined for one thing: to be destroyed.
Only the human who has the strength to be
At peace in Him Who Is, can become like He.


How many times must I become at peace?
All of them.
Rest is stronger than work and so it costs
Everything. Not one thing less. All must be lost
In order to be found. But so it yields:
Peace times fullness of peace;
Rest times fullness of rest;
Joy times fullness of joy;
Life times fullness of life.
This is Heaven.
70 X 7.



See also Genesis 2:3, Leviticus 25.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Stillness


I kneel and pray, a worn out listening prayer,
A prayer of silence, of quieting my mind,
Of laying out before Him all my care,
In quiet darkness, in soft close emptiness
Of midnight in this empty, holy place.
Gazing at the crucifix before my face,
And under it the tabernacle veiled
In purple. I kneel before it, resigned
To the ineptitude of language; words fail
Beneath the crushing weights that vaguely press
Upon my soul. I lay it at His feet,
Breathe and release all worry, fear and pain
The leaden weight of grief upon my chest,
The lump of tears unshed, my worst and best:
The love that sorrows, the pride that will not weep.
I have to let it go. I make no excuse,
You know it better than I. You know its worth,
Light of heaven, fumes of hell, dust of the earth
All tumbled in one heap, no earthly use
In my worrying about it all. One great big gnarly dump
Of human folly, sin, potential and Divine grace.
What is there for me to say? But let me hear.
There is a peace of soul in letting go,
In knowing I’m not you.

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Peace Be With You


All my sins rise up before my eyes
And choke the light with memories of black.
These acts of mine I never can take back
The lusts, the hates, the snobbery, the lies
And simply you reply “Peace be with you.”

 I stand accused with nothing but the truth.
Thus I thought, desired, spoke and did.
These acts were mine and more, I am sure, lie hid
Buried in the subconscious of my youth.
But your only word to me, “Peace be with you.”

Hidden sins I cannot even bring
Before the accuser, hungry for my faults.
Unknown and festering in dark submental vaults
They lie in wait, and to my soul they cling.
But your command to me, “Peace be with you.”

New life, new love, new hopes send down the blade
Through the water’s shallow clarity
Below the shine of surface charity
Plunging into the murk I’ve left unsaid.
And sharply you remind me, “Peace be with you.”

Who knows what lives down there in all that silt?
The water’s peaceful surface boils in fright,
I blame the dredge for what it brings to light,
And still you plunge the blade in to the hilt
And fiercely promise me, “Peace be with you.”

For this you came, to bring the sword of peace
With wounded healing hands through silent war.
Prying, cutting, searching the very core,
Taking away so that you may increase
My hope. My only hope. “Peace be with you.”

Friday, June 15, 2012

Cana


I love my love, my love desires me
My Beloved’s love is mine and mine is hers
And for her I delight to pour out wine
Sweet and heady, as piercing as a kiss.
So welcome all, my friends, come forth and see
Join in, rejoicing in our joy. Draw near
Drink deeply of my father’s choicest wines
And let yourselves be overcome with joy.


Monday morning comes, every week
And the wine is gone. I don’t know where it went.
The gongs of pagan temples in my head
Reverberate over a deserted backstreet,
Where I found myself upon waking. The sky is gray
Or else the light is far too bright for my head
Hungover. Either way, it doesn’t matter. I can’t see,
And somehow last night my paycheck disappeared.
The unnatural, jarring beep, beep, beep
Of the alarm jolts my heart into palpitations
Rabbit like, as I face another day.
My lovely lover’s eyes are rimmed with red
Makeup smeared and bleary; Too human,
Too real for this early in the morning.
I wish she would just offer me some wine
But that’s all gone. Long gone. And anyway,
I have to go to work today.


An older lady orders up more drink
From the strange, wild rabbi with the crazy hair
And eyes that quietly see into my soul.


The coffee maker takes too damn long
To drip my much needed morning dose
Of caffeine. Instant coffee, that’s what I need.
Or a caffeine pill. Caffeine by IV.
Drip it straight into my veins
If I am to face the day.


On the way to work he asks for water,
One hundred and eighty gallons.
Now where the hell am I supposed to find
That much water in the desert?
If I had even a tenth of that I might give you some,
And drink the rest to wet this cotton mouth
Or brew some coffee with it, or take a hot shower.
I might save it for later, just in case.
But give it to you?
And anyway, I’m still waiting on my wine.
If I were drunk I would give you water,
I can afford to be generous when I’m smashed.
What do you need it for anyway?


Well, I suppose I can give you a little.
I think I have an Aquafina in the glove compartment
Leftover from some trip or other.
Who knows what those kids leave in here.
Check under the back seat, and ignore
The prehistoric petrified Cheerios.
There you will find a bottle,
Of water. Or two. Go ahead.
Take one for the road, if you need it.
I need to pick up more anyway.


The Rabbi asks the lady if she knows
What this means, that strange request of hers.
Her only response is full obedience.


That’s the problem with giving
That if you give them a little, they want more.
The homeless guy wants a bottle of water,
The kid wants juice, the wife wants tea.
The kid needs a bath, the wife needs a nap.
That homeless guy on the corner again
Knows my name, but I’ve never asked him his.
One hundred eighty gallons I fill up
One sippy cup at a time.


And suddenly there is wine again,
I don’t know where it came from; only that it’s here.
And better than I remember it. Stronger,
More real, more like wine than wine.
Sweeter, more subtle, like and yet unlike
The wine I knew before. This new wine,
Is old. As old as the hills
And the old wine was very new.


Only much later do we learn
The strange Rabbi bought us the wine
And paid for it with his Blood.

I love my love, my love desires me
My Beloved’s love is mine and mine is hers
And for her I delight to pour out wine
Sweet and heady, as piercing as a kiss.
So welcome all, my friends, come forth and see
Join in, rejoicing in our joy. Draw near
Drink deeply of my Father’s choicest wines
And let your selves be overcome with Joy.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Like the Dewfall


O God, our God of wind and storm and rain,

King of all the force of nature’s might

Lord of hurricane and burning sun

Of all our earthly sea and sky and land,

Who sends as herald quake and blazing fire,

Yet comes at last in a whispering breath of air.


Sometimes, O God, our hearts cannot abide

The fury of your love in all its force

The fierceness of your love with all its fire.

You pour out grace upon us like the rain

Pelting down upon our cowering heads,

Tender, backwards hearts afraid of drops

Of too much life.



                                Life we need, but Lord

Our leaves are still so young, so pale, so soft

And worms and slugs have been gnawing at our roots.

The earth itself, it seems, would wash away

In the shower of your Love, O mighty God.

Life we need, but Life we cannot bear,

It is far too strong for us. Have Mercy, Lord!



The rain ceases.

                              The sun sets.


                                                         Night falls.

The air grows chill, and still, and dark, with sounds

Of scurrying things in shadows on each side.

We cower in the black of ignorance;

This merciful dilution of the light

Seems worse, far worse, than the blazing light of sun.

Here in the dark we choke and wilt and droop

As hours tick by without a hint of life

O God, my God, where are you in this night?



The cold air chills through every pore and cell

Numbing me with no apparent gain

While unbeknownst to me the very air

Grows damp and soft, pregnant with His grace

And drops of moisture form upon my skin.

With infinite tenderness each one is formed

Coalesced from the imperceptible grace

That fills the night with God’s own glorious life,

And gently emplaced by the Holy Spirit’s hand.


The coolness sooths and heals my battered flesh,

And soaks unhurried into my thirsty cells.

Then as the sun returns I stand bedecked

In prophetic jewels of bright, thrice borrowed light,

A gift from Him, my King, my Father, My God.